I stood under the silvery sky the gusty wave glided by and swapped away the sand beneath my feet. I realized the movement; I knew the time was ticking. The cool wintery breeze was silently tearing the flesh apart to leave my soul exposed. My mind wandered again and again to the reminiscences that it bore.”Sarah”, I whispered, it meant everything in the world. Her images flickered as I recalled her laughter once again:
As I pointed the lens; she posed in front of the camera. She usually heard my emotions through the instrument. My captures meant much more than what I usually said to her, the camera shuddered with its finest click divulging my attention, I smirked. Her glistening brown eyes scrolled as she watched herself from my eyes in the tiny screen. Her chided laughter began to blow in the air and her face turned from pale white to flush pink as she cried "only you can portray the inner me, how do you do that? "."Because your eyes talk of everything", I cooed into her ears. She blushed as she stole my gaze and uttered in a softer note"I love you" her lips too tight and breath pounding, her heart was thumping. I pulled her close; I could hear the symphony - her heart beating and the breath escaping, there was so much more that I was experiencing.
She really was like her name ‘Everything’ my heart was undergoing the adrenaline rush, I bit her lip. “Ouch” she expressed numbly, staring into my eyes as the streak of hair slipped on my cheek, as if she was teasing me. I pulled the silky strand back with my finger, slowly exploring the texture of her pastel skin; it was all that I could sense beyond the deep sets of her brown pearls. I crushed her in my arms and mellowed the ultimate three words which she had awaited to hear since the eternity “let’s get married”. For a moment as if the time had stopped for us, she glanced into my stony eyes and said “Really?” “Yes, it is just you that I want, now and forever” I said rolling my fingers on her face. “I will, Dev, I will, now and forever till the heaven resides by us”. And I kissed her below the moon lit star studded sky, by the gushing ocean. As if the heaven, the earth, the sea, were all the witnesses; that we had for our promises.
I had thought that I owned universe that night, little did I know that Dev and Sarah were the names written by the sand, each passing wave would drag them into the struggle of surviving. I always wished to achieve success; she had witnessed me and my dreams shape up patiently for 12 long years. Finally the day had come and we happily tied the knots. Sarah and Dev were examples of love and perpetuity, but do things really happen the way we perceive? I wonder, the creator always has a different plan. Soon after our marriage, we had discovered that I was HIV positive and she had turned into one too. Our world had fallen apart our wows had crushed into the smoke of darkness. It was entirely my fault; I could never give her what she deserved. “Is there a way out? Are you happy, han? Are you smiling God?” I screamed standing between the slipping sand and rumbling waves.
Sarah is six months pregnant now, the doctor had advised us not to sustain the child, but she was willing to see our love growing in the form of life. We do not have many months left to live now and the new born is our enlightening hope yet a despair that we share with the God. All that I beg from God now is: that our child is not a HIV positive. My new born Sarah should be safe now, really! Can that happen?
"Hopes and wishes are like soaring clouds in the night sky, studded with the twinkling stars. Shall it be new moon or full moon, there is always a dawn!"
Dev and Sarah have passed away it has been 6 years now, Sarah the girl child that they gave birth to is surviving, hoping, smiling and giggling like her mother. Her life has every dream, she was born as HIV negative, she misses her mother and father, envies other kids but understands her life is a gift.
P.S. Life is not fair always, there is only one thing that can be fair, it is US. Be grateful to what you possess, cherish it, enlighten it. There will be nothing beyond this time that you can hold on to. Live every moment.
